ok soooooooooooooooo , erm , this will never work . so thanks .

mixed signals here and there plus , im having second thoughts about this . see , told you i need a freaking traffic light . i really need one right now or i know , just let me crash and burn . im fine with that too .

my back hurts , real bad . dont ask me why , i just dont know . i hope its nothing . seriously ):

oh , how do i know if i should stay or just go ? where's the traffic light when you need one !

idk why , im feeling abit scared right now . im having problems with my backbone :/ i just feel terrified in case something happen to me . this feeling sucks .

gave myself high hopes and another chance on this but i guess it was a stupid idea . :/

i think i have this friendly face uh . hahaha . cos while i was volunteering for the SCM 2011 . gt this ACJC chinese girl came up and talk to me . we chatted like we know each other . hahaha . my age , i think and she has already done with her A levels . nice and me , 1st year poly . boohoo . then i also talk to this policemen . i think he's new with his job cos dia mcm kental gitu . so yeah . ahahha . and other people as well . heh ! so update on my hectic life . ok hectic isn't the word , but yeah . ok so i cut my hair short ! some like it well some said it looks funny . idk , to me its okay , obviously. ahah . and other than this , well . life goes on as per normal . the only thing i need right now is a job . i need money . i need money . #funfact ; i spend half 0f my money in my bank on food . ikr . heh . ok bai !

updates ; mom found out that i smoke and she was very very very disappointed and she has every right to be disappointed . the rest of the days are normal . wake up , survive , home , sleep . ikr . and i finally cut my hair . heh . i know , you all gonna miss my long hair too . its ok , i shall keep for 6 months till i have another haircut . hehehe . ok bai ;D

gosh , where have you been ?

gosh , where have you been ?

aren't you people getting scared that's the world gonna end ? im getting freak out by every moment . but the worst part is , its hard for me to taubat . i keep on doing sins , small or big sing , it is still a sin . hais , sometimes i wish i was one of the holy people . ikr . idk why , these are the days that i just don't feel right and i just want to make everything right . ok , bai

so i have got some little questions on my mind like "is it true?" or "what the fuck am i doing?" you know , questions like that . ohhh and did i mention that i want to start reading books ? no ? so yeah , i dont know why but i want to start reading books . however , i cant seem to find any time to find books and i dont know any good writers or any good books . haaaaaaah , so , maybe i need to find some help . hmmmmmmm . ok bai ;D

so did anyone saw the sky yesterday evening ? someone painted the sky . it was so beautiful lah .

currently hating my life . so gonna listen to screamo songs now . sigh .

k so fought with my mom again , urgh . ok actually i want to like talk about everything here but i love bottling up my emotions and just let it out while playing soccer . zzzz . k nvm . bai .

what a lousy week . tomorrow will be a better day , a better week (:

i should keep myself from a certain distance . no , no more . not this time .

so i was in the bus just now and so this lil boy . at first he was sitting beside me right after i smiled at him . then , he decided to sit beside his grandfather . being a typical young boy , he looked out the window . coincidentally there was another bus beside us and so he actually waved to the passengers on board . so at first i thought he was waving at some teens or something . when the bus passed , he was actually waving to a lil girl wearing tudung . idk why , but i find this very very cute . hahahahaa . small children are so cute ! can i like adopt one ? my lil bro so big , so fat alr . pfffft . ok somehow , i feel gayish , but fuck the world .

and hafiz told me that his friend laughed at my pants . yes , i know its singkat and whatsoever . tell me , have you seen anyone wearing this ? no ? fuck you , im unique bitch . hahahaha . ok lame . i just find the society we living in is sooooooo .... argh . :/

okkkkkk , now im alone trying my best to study . but ..... my attention span is so teruk . sigh !

ok shall try my best to continue! heh . byebyebyebyebye !

the very last thing i need now is having this shitty feeling . shall try to study alone tomorrow . i think i really need this .

guess youre still trapped in the past . ohh snap back to reality please ?

have to clarify some doubts in my mind , or shall just forget about it . ohh dilemma .

i hate this feeling . i hate this feeling . i hate this feeling . feeling , go away .

Lost my uncle today . Al-Fatihah . Harap pak ngah bersamaan dengan orang yang beriman . Amin .

and sorry mom i couldnt accompany or even hug you while you were crying . i should have . i should have ):

dont ever make decisions when youre anger and dont ever make promises when youre happy .
but you know what , i feel like smoking fucking weed right now ! cb ah , i wanna be carefree once again . i wish i had no feelings at all . and at this time , i wish it comes true . major sigh .
no fucking one has ever understand me . not even you or you or you or youuu .

people keep on criticizing me for my results . oh come on , i know you guys are freaking clever . so fucking what ? i dont live to fucking please you all . unlike you all , im brave enough to say im fucking daring to do all those stupid things in my life . some people cant see it through . yes , look through my fucking flaws . see if i care . #justsaying .

because im not worth of your fucking time .

its already october . time flies . should start doing something about myself .

people say im rough . so if i start being nice , does that mean im being a hypocrite ? pfft .
so yeah , weeks passed , nothing's new . everyone knows . so im just gonna stand there like a pole . why am i so funny ? gosh .
wokaywokaywokay . i just want to say that ........... im bored and should start sleeping because i have a bus to catch tmr . lalala , with my cousins siol . no adults . ohh laalalaa . haha .
ok bai !

ok im like superduper dark now :O look at the brightside , at least my soccer skills have improved by tenfold . ok maybe i should stop wasting my life and start doing really productive such as working or studying . yaknow , im so used to having fun that sometimes i get too sidetrack with life . major sigh lah . and the worst part , next week school starts . IKR . new classmates , mostly my course . idk how to survive . seriously . can i like , idk , quit school and go to barcelona academy or something ? haisssssssssss . lalalaaa . i complain too much .
andand ohhh , im going malaysia on the 1st of october . i know its nothing , but it has been years since i went there . the last time was on 2008 or 2009 . ikr! and the best/worst part is im gg with my cousins by bus while my parents by car . the best part , can buy ciggies , the worst part , malaysia . to be honest , takot ah . haha .
ok nk makan . bai .

People care too much about documenting experiences rather than enjoy them while they happens. Say hello to All Time Low. Say hello to good times .

do you like making out and long drives and brown eyes and guys that just dont quite fit in

- So Impossible .

its about a guy trying to chase after a girl , that he thinks its merely impossible .

give me one second and i could turn you into somebody else .

I need someone who is willing to accept the real me . Period .

Im a very picky person , very very picky .

Im afraid , afraid of committing the same mistakes :/

Take a look around , you could have anyone . So leave undeserving him . - Saddest girl story .

i just want to say thanks to all for buying all those lovely presents . lovelove you all (': <3

Simple yet awesome birthday . love you guys man <3

i guess you totally forgot . fine by me .

see , once i get my hopes high , it will just betray me . every time , every single fcuking time . am i missing a point here , or is it just parcel of life . so far , nothing's new . it's all the same shit . maybe i should leave it this way .
on a brightside , next week's my Birthday . hell yeah im excited but why ... ok nevermind . and today's the last day of puasa ): honestly , this is one of the month that i feel reallyreally pure . please dont go ): okay , bye [:

im back to square one , where all that matters right now is nothing and nothing at all . and yaknow everytime i listen to Sunday Drive by The Early November , the feeling sucks . not just this song , songs by Mayday parade and much much more . their songs are able to express the words that can't be uttered by the mouth . and the worst part of all , idk why i feel so emo nowadays . these are some of the days i feel like laying back stargazing and forget the world . maybe then , maybe , i could find my answers . but i always believe that time will tell . Thus , time will tell .

Happiness is only real when shared - Into the wild . This is a great movie , it teaches us about life . We all don't need money . Money and wealth are just illusions . But however ... okay people who are still reading my blog . Go watchhhhhhh ! okay nights 8D

somehow , i think . okay maybe not . you know what sucks , whenever i get too happy , bad things will happen . i know its life , but i think that everyone should deserve to be happy , vvv happy for a day once w/o any bad things happening to them . maybe im asking too much . and i have exams tmr , omg . so unprepared even tho its open book . lalala ~

so last night i felt like i was taking drugs . seriously . the feeling sucks . i hope it will never happen again , ever .

urgggggggh . give me a break already . honestly .

curse of the middle child , for goodness sake .

hais

Sometimes you just have to believe in yourself even though things may seem worthless . cause at the end of the day , you know you have put in effort . fuck care what people say , they dk what you been true . be true to your owndoings and never give up . whenever you feel like giving up , look back and see what you have accomplished so far ? was it worth giving up ? i hope you are reading this to give you some inspiration . failing is just a stepping stone to success . trust me on this .

i think today sucks . sighhhhhhhh . kill me alr .

Meet my classsssss ~

they are fun yet annoying however they are not as awesome as 5A<3

heh , still .

gonna miss having lessons with them .

speaking of which , i miss having lessons with 5A ):

sigh .

dont put high hopes on me , im not fucking worth it , mom .

seriously . i hate people putting high hopes on me .

im not the guy who loves to be under pressure .

sadly , you dk me well . no one does .

its time for bed , nights .

Nice guys finish last . i hope this is true :/

eventhough im used to be all alone , but at some point of time ,

i just need a companion .
#justsaying

and 1 week , puasa full , terawih full .

alhamdulillah (:

And I don't know if I should say "I'm sorry or thank you"? I tried to speak but the tears choke the words. And I think I finally know what they mean when they talk about joy

cao chicken , grades dropping miserably .

should start studying this weekend :/

i've already expected it , so why does it hurts ?

if i could lose you once , i could lose you again .

nothing's new .

A bitter sweet start on the month of Ramadhan .

Happy Fasting [:

Hello , my name is Haziq and my hair is thick and shaggy .

i go bonkers with girls having sweet smiles

and i think that we all should live life to fullest with no regrets .

it's early in the morning and im like writing this shit .

naaaaaaah , its just a form of expression .

nights/morning yall

(:

Maybe someday
you'll really get to know me
not just the letters read to you
I pray I get the chance
To make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do

How can i help others when i even cant help myself ?

#foreverloser .

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Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

expressed . period .

thanks for that , i really need it .

yeap , i do .

i guess thats the reason why i dont feel right this past few days .

maybe it has only been me , and just me and me and yeah , me .

maybe my friends were right , or my intuition was wrong ?

too much possibilities .

torn apart .

was fuck in the heart .

smashed it , who cares .

i dont .

ccb , i dont even know what am i writing .

ahhh fuck , i dont care , i have no luck .

loser = me = loser = me .

im done ,

done with life .

to whoever reading this ; what you have read here , ends here .

BYE

blahblahblah .

i need new watch , new hat , new boot .

tskk , i need monayee .

kay bye

How i wish falling in love has traffic light ,

so that i would know

if i should go for it , slow down or just stop .

#cheesy

Let's play hide and seek 8D

In 2 days time , i hide , you seek .

nyeheheh

THIS WEEK HAS BEEN SUCH A FUCKTUPP WEEK . I DID SOMETHING STUPID . MOM BEEN NAGGING THE WHOLE FUCKING WEEK . I CANT PLAY SOCCER PROPERLY . EVERYTHING IS WRONG . THIS SUCKS . MY LIFE SUCKS . IM SUCH A LOSER . FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT

NOW EVERYTHING MY FAULT ? FUCK IT LAH . IM 18 YEARS OLD FOR GOODNESS SAKE . YOU DON'T EXPECT ME TO GO HOME EARLY EVERYDAY . I HAVE A FREAKING LIFE . FUCK , SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I WASN'T EVEN BORN . AHHHHHHHHH FUCK LAH . FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK . CCB LAH . AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Can i look into your eyes for the last time before everything falls apart ?

can i ?

and so last night i did some stupid things . hah . that feeling sucks .

I miss those times when I looked into your eyes, a sacrifice I made for paradise. The objects in your mirror are closer than they actually appear.

Keep on going , fuck it . Hypocrite to yourself . Lie to yourself . Aint worth it .

honestly , its over over over , chopchop over .

im still in love with the person who helped me write it .

im the worst son ever lah . yest , it was mother's day . I didnt even wished my mom . next , i dont even know that my father has a new job ! woah sian ehh . tell me , worst son ever right -.-"

i just need someone to talk you . i feel like shit now . #justsaying .

finally let go of all the shits i've been through via soccer .

i feel bad .

On a brighter note , i watched Thor (Y)

Whats worth living for ?

I wish i could travel back time . Hah , this is so overrated .

#justsaying i miss you , eventho ..

#imjustsayin

You know what sucks ? Everything .

_l_

Next week orientation !

lazy eh !

i hope my class will be awesome .

ahhhhhh ~

honestly . you keep appearing in my dreams .

how can i forget you ?

joints , please get better soon .

it sucks when youre in pain ):

love , me.

and i get myself another admirer .

ohh hey , lucky me -.-

so now , how am i supposed to reject them in a nice manner .

tsktsk .

how do i choose between my head and heart ?

life is unfair ,

and some things are just not meant to be .

Cause in the end too much of a good thing can become a bad thing .
anyway , i wanted to say this before i go , but i didnt get the chance .
so yeah .
Prolly today would be one of the last day i'll be seeing you .
sooooooo ..
Break a leg and make me proud .
(:

Do i look young ?
a 13 year old boy came up to me and ask me , whats my age .
i answered 18 and he said wow , you look young -.-"

and i dont look like sezairi _|_

So olive you ~

i think i look adorable here .
HAHAHAHAHAHAH .

i hope i change for the better soon .
life is too uncertain .

Give me this last chance ,
i proved you right .

keep on going haziq ,
youre doing fine .
just fine .

work is fine .
its not that tiring , but its too boring .
haha .
can't wait for my first pay [x
hahaa .

TARZAN (Y)

Dear you ,
Sorry , but i have to admit that i still miss you ):
Sorry that i couldn't move on .
and if you're reading this , just ignore it , i'll be fine .
Sincerely , me .

hello , im bored .
lalalalalaaaaa ~

meet my bestfriend , kidding !
he's my victim , literally .

You have to help yourself before you help others. A poor person can't give to someone as poor as them.#LF

2010 was filled with awesome memories .
2011 , please be awesome-r ~