currently hating my life . so gonna listen to screamo songs now . sigh .

k so fought with my mom again , urgh . ok actually i want to like talk about everything here but i love bottling up my emotions and just let it out while playing soccer . zzzz . k nvm . bai .

what a lousy week . tomorrow will be a better day , a better week (:

i should keep myself from a certain distance . no , no more . not this time .

so i was in the bus just now and so this lil boy . at first he was sitting beside me right after i smiled at him . then , he decided to sit beside his grandfather . being a typical young boy , he looked out the window . coincidentally there was another bus beside us and so he actually waved to the passengers on board . so at first i thought he was waving at some teens or something . when the bus passed , he was actually waving to a lil girl wearing tudung . idk why , but i find this very very cute . hahahahaa . small children are so cute ! can i like adopt one ? my lil bro so big , so fat alr . pfffft . ok somehow , i feel gayish , but fuck the world .

and hafiz told me that his friend laughed at my pants . yes , i know its singkat and whatsoever . tell me , have you seen anyone wearing this ? no ? fuck you , im unique bitch . hahahaha . ok lame . i just find the society we living in is sooooooo .... argh . :/

okkkkkk , now im alone trying my best to study . but ..... my attention span is so teruk . sigh !

ok shall try my best to continue! heh . byebyebyebyebye !

the very last thing i need now is having this shitty feeling . shall try to study alone tomorrow . i think i really need this .

guess youre still trapped in the past . ohh snap back to reality please ?

have to clarify some doubts in my mind , or shall just forget about it . ohh dilemma .

i hate this feeling . i hate this feeling . i hate this feeling . feeling , go away .

Lost my uncle today . Al-Fatihah . Harap pak ngah bersamaan dengan orang yang beriman . Amin .

and sorry mom i couldnt accompany or even hug you while you were crying . i should have . i should have ):

dont ever make decisions when youre anger and dont ever make promises when youre happy .
but you know what , i feel like smoking fucking weed right now ! cb ah , i wanna be carefree once again . i wish i had no feelings at all . and at this time , i wish it comes true . major sigh .
no fucking one has ever understand me . not even you or you or you or youuu .

people keep on criticizing me for my results . oh come on , i know you guys are freaking clever . so fucking what ? i dont live to fucking please you all . unlike you all , im brave enough to say im fucking daring to do all those stupid things in my life . some people cant see it through . yes , look through my fucking flaws . see if i care . #justsaying .

because im not worth of your fucking time .

its already october . time flies . should start doing something about myself .