"be afraid, but do it anyway."

 I'll never have hands like an artist painting pictures of you smiling full of joy as you wake from slumber. cause tonight, everything dont feels right. fuck this.

and im not prepared for tomorrow. actually i am prepared, prepared to fail.

the other side of me that you will never see.

okay so i really need to vent out my anger and i think this is like the only good place to vent my anger. fuck the police la omg. he told me i was rude for saying so loudly and excuse me, youre the one who came here with the bad fucking attitude and how dare you say im the rude one over here. and the fact that i proved my points, you should jolly well fuck off la. the only reason i stop fighting back because you want to fucking sue me. bitch, i have the money to pay la, but i dont want others to get involved. youre just one lucky motherfucker. urgh, if i could, i really want to punch your face real hard. and this is not the first time. the other guy was also fucking rude. you guys think you have that badge, you guys can abuse the power is it. fuck you all. im just fucking furious right now. and to think that we were taught to respect them when they dont even respect us. fuck propaganda. 

and the main reason for all this is because of this stupid uncle. always come down with your wheelchair and keep shouting to us. yes, fuck you too. you and the policeman should fuck each other, for all i know you two must be gays. shit ass bitch. i hope you die real soon and burn in hell. 

guys, listen to this. im not sure if i posted this before. but listen or must i say watch. heh!

ok so........Selamat Hari Raya!!

HAHAHAHAHAA. actually i wanted to wear my hair like p.ramlee. yg senget2. but nahhhh. tk cool ah on me ):

anyway, hari raya has always be the same for me. boring.........getting tired of this. actually for raya right, i only looking forward to seek forgiveness from my parents. im not the best of son and i really regret all the things i have done such as you know stuff...... and despite all that, they forgave me. and tbh, i actually shed a tear when seeking forgiveness but typical me step man up ah. hahahah, 

okay other than that, lazy to jalan raya. the other cousins also never talk to me. so fuck them. the ones who talk to me are practically smokers, so yah. hahahahah. and um, i realised that when youre older, the amount they give you also increase. for me lah. hahaha. so good! tk habis2 10 bucks je dpt. usually 2 bucks. not saying that im not bersyukur or what but,like why when older? hahaha. tu je. 

and other than that, my big bro also gave duit raya since he's a working man! hahahaha. tk dpt langsung sia this year. pity him like crazy. everyone fucking knows that he is fucking working and like money block ah. hahahahaah. furthermore, people keep asking him abt the razi guy, who died at brunei. yes, his my brother's friend. so yah, wont go into details.

ok so far the longest update yet......i think im just feeling happy cause........nothing. hehehehe. 

okaylah. goodnight everyone! ;D