It has been a while since i actually wrote something. Life has been pretty depressing nowadays. I keep thinking on things that prolly will never happen and actually try to live in them. You can say that im living in a denial tho. But what can i do right. My real life is pretty much sucky most of the time. Most days i feel super lonely, because i dont have anyone to talk to. And when i do i will push them away cause its tiring. I blame no one except for myself obviously but i hate it so much. All i want is someone who is willing to stay for my nonsense and help me go through this 2 years of my shitty life with me. Is it so hard to ask for. And the girls i like is either old, young or like other races. Really hope my life gets better soon.